We dove right into the work here in Thailand.
This week has been eventful! I’m not sure if I was shell shocked just diving into everything. When I met the students for the first time I was more quiet than I expected. (There’s also a language barrier, so yeah, there’s that.)
Then the thoughts came to me, how could I possibly help these girls when I see so much of myself in them?
Coming from a broken home with an imperfect past.
Early in the morning I wake up to read, write, and process everything. I take these quiet moments to lean in to God’s word, and let them go over in my head multiple times.
When I look at my own ability to gain confidence it is faulty, and it doesn’t empower me one bit.
But, when I remind myself of who God has made me —- I start to operate out of my identity.
Then I remember all of the people God chose to use in the Bible; from Moses to David, Mary to Peter.
In their own strength they’re considered “less than” in society because of their “weaknesses”. But what if their weakness was the most positive attribute, because it caused them to rely on something and someone bigger than themselves?
“The miracle is in the breaking. It is in the breaking that God multiplies not enough into more than enough. Are there broken places in your life so painful that you fear the breaking will destroy you? Do you come from a broken home? Did you have a broken marriage? Did you have a broken past? Have you experienced brokenness in your body? Have your finances been broken? You may think your brokenness has disqualified you for being able to run in the divine relay, but as with my own life and Kalli’s, when we give God our brokenness, it qualifies us to be used by God to carry a baton of hope, restoration, and grace to others on the sidelines who are broken.”
– Christine Caine, Undaunted
And with that, I will say, go on with your broken self.
2 Corinthians 12:9-11
New Living Translation (NLT)
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.